So, the decision now is to appeal.
I dunno why but the reluctance to go into sim is growing stronger and stronger each day.
yeah like at this point of time. how great. =/
Coz of this im nt sure if i still wanna appeal to adm although tts the course i really wanna do but its really competitive, the number of ppl wanting to go in wif tt little vacancies.
I think i've come to a point where it's jus let me in whatever the course.

ahhh this sucks. like really it sucks.
everyone's been pretty troubled by it.
like wads wrong wif those unis seriously?
rejecting ppl who did reasonably well?
some of them got bcc or bbc got rejected?!
so now are we suppose to get straight As to secure a place?
this is so irritating.
and i wonder did they even scan through our list of choices.

I thought of gg to the far away aussie.
coz WO ZHEN DE ZHEN DE BU XIANG JING SIM. =(
firstly, it's at clementi!!!! and there are no hostels to begin wif so travelling back and fro marine parade and clementi is no joking matter. haha.
i would have to take a bus then train then bus agn!
the travelling can alr take up 1/4 of my day lor.
and im not exaggerating if u include the waiting time and all.

So that's one.
Secondly, sim-uol. the curriculum and all follows the UOL in London.
Mummy was afraid tt the accounting theories tt i learn would be applied more to london than s'pore.

Thirdly, daddy's been telling me to be prepared.
coz its gonna be hard.
coz papers and all are set by the profs in london(which u dunno wad they're gonna set) compared to local unis where its set by ur own prof.
So it's easier coz usually they will set wad they teach.

ahhh. see its very bad right!


i've been feeling so emo nowadays thinking bout all this.
as i said, 2008 hasnt been a smooth year for me. ='(
boo.

I feel better now after talking to mummy and daddy over dinner ystd.
Well, i got rejected by ntu lah.
That's why i was so emo coz if i cant get into ntu then dun even talk about nus.
So i guess SIM-UOL, accounting and finance, would be where i'll be heading.
haiz. as much as i dun want to, i guess i dun have a choice.

sigh.i dunno why but i jus feel tt i've let my parents down although they dun appear to be.
I guess its the pressure that every cousin made it to the local U.
Im the only one...
why am i so dumb?!

A sudden urge to blog.
So, i guess i just need to let it out somewhere..
I dunno wad to say, i guess im blogging now as a reminder in future to never let this happen agn.
Im super depressed and sad right now.
Knowing tt my dreams and hopes are shattered.
Knowing tt i have disappointed my parents.
Thinking about it.
I just think that it's so unfair.
Im sure i've worked harder than some.
But why don't u jus freaking give me a chance???!!! WHY???!!!
Gawd. im so overwhelmed wif emotions now.
Apart of me is super pissed at myself for nt trying harder yet another part of me is guilt-ridden.
why why WHYY!!!

it's hard, it's jus so hard...im tired..really am..
Im trying my best at hm to not show my emotions, to not let my parents worry.
But yet behind close doors..tears would start falling.
It's over i guess.
I can only blame myself for being too naive.

The only reason why im taking this so seriously its coz it was a dream.
But i guess it's a 'forget about it' forever.

DAVID COOK WON!!!
YEAH!!!
Im so happy for him! hahaha.
now i cant wait for his album!
and archuleta's too!

oh gawd. Im so excited bout today's and tomorrow's American Idol!
hahaha. 8pm faster come!
David Cookkkkkkkkk.

I finally bought the camera for mummy on sat.

After tt i brought mummy to MOF at Bugis.

Wanted her to try the desserts there. And surprisingly there were many vegetarian dishes! So mummy was kinda happy, started praising how thoughtful the japanese are and says we should come back agn wif daddy and bro. haha.

But true lah they kinda took care of every minute detail.

The thing is we didnt have to pay a single cent for tt meal! coz we used our vouchers! LOL.

more free meals and buys to come! so i guess it was a smart move to save the vouchers instead of using it all for the camera. =)

I finally found the mood to blog. haha.
coz i've gotten all the pics .
It's gonna be a pretty long entry. =)

So, shall go allll the way back to 3rd May:
Shiya invited us over to her hse for a steamboat cum bbq party for an early bday celebration.
The food was good! and i thought the steamboat was really cool coz it was outside her hse and carpeted. very professionally done. haha. and the theme was colourful and vibrant. haha but shiya ended up wearing her tpjc heron shirt and fbt.
Since we bought her a white dress, pink donut like earrings and another top frm M industries, we thought she should jus wear the white dress plus the earrings.

But we didnt want to give it to her jus like tt, we wanted her to be surprised! haha. and she really was!
We hung the dress in her wardrobe while she was bathing. When she came in we pretended to help her choose a vibrant and colourful top. haha. then we said,' eh this white dress very nice leh! wear it!!!'
shiya was totally puzzled by when did she even get the dress??? Then she suddenly tot tt it could be a surprise frm her mum! haha. super funny!
so she ran out of her room and asked her mum if she was the one who bought the dress and so her mum ended up puzzled too. LOL.
It was then she realised tt it was a surprise frm us! HAHA! okay so our surprised worked!
After she came out changed, we were alr waiting outside for her to give her another surprise! those party poppers. haha.



With all her presents!
chewy juniors frm me! haha

I've got so much i wanna update but im waiting for shiya to send me over those photos first. haha.

So, anyways something major happened! I was out on tues wif shiya at marina and i freaking lost my CAMERA!!!
damn sad lah. it's lost just like tt!
and the thing is i dun even noe how i lost it!
we took pics in the toilet but i was veryyyyyy sure i put the cam back into my bag. BUT i forgot to zip it. :/
So, shiya and i were thinking could it be tt the cam dropped out by itself?
But then if it really dropped out we should have been able to hear it right? If nt ppl at the back wld at least tell us? Coz i really dun think anyone would dare to jus take it wif soooo many ppl ard looking.
Still, tt could happen coz tt person could be super daring and the ppl ard jus cant be bothered.

OR someone took it straight frm my bag! hahaha.
But i dun think im tt blind or insensitive to nt feel it. Unless im so suay to meet a pro tt day. -___-

So, was damn sian ar. Coz the camera wasnt mine it's my mum's.
Told her bout it, nagged, but stopped when i offered to get her a new camera for mother's day. hahaha.
oh wells she's gonna get a pricey one coz when i said i'll get her the same one she said no lahhhh get a better one! oh noooo.

Bro was still saying tt i keep losing things and expensive ones! haha.
I lost 2 phones and now a camera. how great.
I think no one will trust me wif expensive things now. lol.


I'm currently in love wif this song by John Mayer- Slow Dancing in a Burning Room! :*)

Im blogging again. haha. Im sooo bored right now. Cant wait for 4.30 to come! coz then i'll be out! haha.

anyways, i do have sth to blog about.
There's talks about ah ma coming over to our place to stay for a week.
Either late may or early june coz uncle's family, who's staying wif her ,will be flying over to china due to some domestic affairs.
So, no one feels safe letting ah ma stay home by herself coz ah ma's memory is deteriorating day by day.
And since im the freest of all and ah ma gets along better wif our family so they decided tt ah ma will come over then I can take care of her. =)
Daddy's gonna take some leave too. =)
so yeah cooolll!
i think among all the ah mas and ah gongs.
Im closer to her coz she was wif me every single day when i was a child. She'll come over to my place everyday to take care of my bro and i and at the same time check on the maid. haha.
So, mummy was telling me to talk to her more the other day coz in future she might forget us..=(

Her memory's so bad now tt she can take a cab and end up forgetting where she wanna go and tell the cabbie to turn back to her place.
So, i shall make the most of the time when she's here! =)


Anyways, im gg back to simei ite to work agn. haha.
But its only for 3 days to help out wif the graduation but i'll have to report on mon thou for a short briefing.
yeahh! money! hahaha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIYA!!!

WHY IS THE WEATHER SO HOT???!!!!
WHY???!!!!
IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS!

The weather is insanely hot! So much so tt i cant get by a day w/o turning on the air-con or the fan.
So, because of this i've been swimming whenever im free coz its so shiok! Such weathers are really good for swimming! and i'd feel uberly rejuvenated!

Aside from tt i havent been idling!
I've been helping out at mummy's workplace coz she hired me. haha.
Well, it's sort of working for her and nt the company coz she got so much work piled up tts nt scanned in the com and checked and wad nt.
Coz of this i dun have to work everyday. =)
So yep im paid but its only 6/hr. But im nt complaining coz at least im earning.
I guess i'll be helping her till i find sth esle to do.

So, i was asking daddy the other day wad did he buy for lunch and he said he bought sth indescribable.
And the first think tt came to my mind was mcgriddles coz of the commercial and it really was. -.-
It tasted kinda weird actually coz the flavours are too extreme the two pancakes at the top and bottom is soooo sweet and the beef inside is salty. Weird combination.
Got this from jia lin's blog, 'sweet+salty=horrible'
haha. how true.
So after eating it i told daddy to never buy it agn. haha. Its nt very cheap either.

Was browsing through 'My Pictures' and i missed those days with the eminents! haha.

It was my 16th bday! =)