A sudden urge to blog.
So, i guess i just need to let it out somewhere..
I dunno wad to say, i guess im blogging now as a reminder in future to never let this happen agn.
Im super depressed and sad right now.
Knowing tt my dreams and hopes are shattered.
Knowing tt i have disappointed my parents.
Thinking about it.
I just think that it's so unfair.
Im sure i've worked harder than some.
But why don't u jus freaking give me a chance???!!! WHY???!!!
Gawd. im so overwhelmed wif emotions now.
Apart of me is super pissed at myself for nt trying harder yet another part of me is guilt-ridden.
why why WHYY!!!

it's hard, it's jus so hard...im tired..really am..
Im trying my best at hm to not show my emotions, to not let my parents worry.
But yet behind close doors..tears would start falling.
It's over i guess.
I can only blame myself for being too naive.

The only reason why im taking this so seriously its coz it was a dream.
But i guess it's a 'forget about it' forever.